I’m 5 lbs away from my goal weight but I still feel fat - I hate this. I’m more self-conscious now than I was when I weighed 215 and was 4 sizes bigger. I thought 180 would look different on me than it does but oh well at the end of the day I’ve still lost 35 lbs since high school. I think I’m going to try to get back down to my varsity weight (160) or maybe even 150 (which I haven’t weighed since middle school before I broke my leg) but that’s going to take some time. My progress slows with every pound I lose and there is really no helping that unless I started to lose weight the unhealthy way, which I refuse to do. I don’t think I’m ever going to feel like I have an attractive body, no matter how much weight I lose. I just hope I can find a partner that can appreciate me for who I am and my body for what it is.
I miss the times when I loved myself.